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Oh boy, it’s been a month and I haven’t blogged. In fact. this month was my summer vacations, meaning I had all the time in the world to blog. Guess I just didn’t feel like it. After the initial euphoria of starting and maintaining a blog for n year, it actually gets boring.

I didn’t completely waste the holidays though - did some work on the back-end of Howzzit.com - that’s a “Online Sunday Magazine” that a couple of my friends decided to re-launch. I’ve also been “hired” as the editor for the Tech section (which you can guess, seeing it has the least updates in the site). I’m more of a quality guy than a quantity guy, and it shows.

What else? We had 9 BIFS Math classes in the 5 weeks of holidays, of which I missed 2. Didn’t go anywhere in the holidays, but will, on the 2nd Of July, to Guwahati, Shillong and Dimapur - my former home. We plan to be back on the 6th evening.

Oh and I burnt my hands. Twice. While cooking. I now have a balloon on my right thumb.

Before I end this, I would like to say a couple of words about a friend who tragically lost his mother a couple of days ago. I had met her just a couple of months ago, and even if I knew her for a few hours, she had left a lasting impact on me. It is simply unbelievable that she is no more. I have lost my own ones, but the sudden way that she died has actually left me shell shocked. May her soul rest in peace.

Amen.

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Asked a girl what she wanted to be
She said baby, can’t you see
I wanna be famous, a star on the screen
But you can do something in between

Baby you can drive my car
Yes I’m gonna be a star
Baby you can drive my car
And maybe I’ll love you

I told that girl that my prospects were good
she said baby, it’s understood
Working for peanuts is all very fine
But I can show you a better time

Baby you can drive my car
Yes I’m gonna be a star
Baby you can drive my car
And maybe I’ll love you

Beep beep’m beep beep yeah

Baby you can drive my car
Yes I’m gonna be a star
Baby you can drive my car
And maybe I’ll love you

I told that girl I can start right away
When she said listen babe I got something to say
I got no car and it’s breaking my heart
But I’ve found a driver and that’s a start

Baby you can drive my car
Yes I’m gonna be a star
Baby you can drive my car
And maybe I’ll love you
Beep beep’m beep beep yeah
Beep beep’m beep beep yeah
Beep beep’m beep beep yeah
Beep beep’m beep beep yeah
Beep beep’m beep beep yeah

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I’ve been away from the computer and the phone for the entire month of March, owing to my 10th Grade exams. Screwed up the year so badly that the school wouldn’t let me pursue science unless I put up an exceptional Math exam, so I was swimming in my Math books and doing 3-hour extra classes three days a week. It paid off, even though the results ain’t out yet.

Anyhow, a month away from the computer also made me realize how worthless Facebook is, and how cool Twitter is. Unfortunately, Facebook has now become a need, almost at par with having a phone line, and I can’t stay off Facebook for long. Thankfully, my phone suffices, so I don’t have to stay in front of a computer 24x7. That poses a couple of hard to revert health regressions.

The day the exams ended, I went, direct from school, to New Market to have a Double Beef Roll at Nizam’s. That single roll, which costs just 25 bucks, is literally overstuffed with Beef Kebabs, and trust me, it’s delectable. Oh and also, I got to join the club of the few people that’s been on one of the two AC rakes of the Kolkata Metro that makes just 4 trips a day between them. That’s about 1.905% of the total number of runs per day. And I got to be on one of those trains that was making that 1.905% of the runs.

The trains are good. The interiors are ditto copies of the Delhi Metro, but the Kolkata one is a tad taller. Also, Kolkata has 8 cars per trainset compared to Delhi’s 4, each of which is, by eye, 25% longer than the Delhi equivalent, so each trainset in Kolkata’s metro is equivalent to 10 Delhi-sized cars. At 8 minutes between trains, that’s some capacity.

Enough about the Metro. Thanks to one very big friend, I’m also on the road to becoming a regular author for the Hindustan Times.

Adios. Mom’s screaming at me for lunch.

Edit: Here’s how I arrived at the 1.905% figure. The Kolkata Metro runs for 14 hours a day, from 7AM to 9PM (This figure may be a bit off - the number of hours may be be 16, from 6:30AM to 10:30PM too, but I’m assuming my 14 is correct). 14 multiplied by 60 makes 840. That’s the number of minutes the Metro is in service. Now there’s a pair of trains every 8 minutes (up/down), so I’ll divide 840 by 4 to get the number of runs per day. This comes to 210. Now if 210 runs = 100%, then x% = 4. x calculates out to 1.905%. If the number of hours in service is actually 16, the percentage of AC runs is 1.667%

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It’s 1:53 AM here on Sunday, January 30 2011, and I have suddenly remembered that train journey that we went through during the Durga Puja holidays in 2006. I’m pretty sure that if I go off to sleep now, I’m not going to remember any of this so vividly as I’m recollecting right now, so I’m going to write it down right now. So let’s begin.

We were supposed to visit my aunt, uncle and cousin, who at that time stayed at Hyderabad, in the Monsoon of 2006. Durga Puja was held early that year, with Saptami falling on Friday the 29th of September. Monsoon was also pretty late and quite heavy that year. We got booked on the 8645 East Coast Express from Howrah to Hyderabad departing Tuesday, 26th September 2006. Our school had just hired a new principal that academic year, and part of her “crackdown on leniency by the former principal”, as she called it, involved refusing early holidays to students. We were leaving on the 26th, which involved missing the last two days of pre-puja vacation school. My parents approached the principal for permission for an early holiday, and got refused in a very strict manner. Nonetheless, we had to go, since our tickets had been booked.

Cut to Friday, 22nd September, and incessant rains began, flooding the front of our house and turning it into an island. The school declared a holiday, and I got myself an extended weekend. However, even when the rains subsided on Saturday, fresh spells on Sunday only increased the water level. The school refused to declare a holiday on Monday, but I could not attend due to the waterlogging. In fact, I vaguely remember a friend telling me the attendance in Class VI-C, which ha a strength of 35, being in the single digits, something like 7, on that Monday.

Rewind back to Sunday, the heavy rains caused a landslide of sorts at Tikiapara. This shut down the entire South Eastern Railway section of Howrah Station. Most of the trains were cancelled, and some were moved to depart from Santragachi. All incoming trains were being short-terminated at Santragachi.

On Tuesday morning, I woke up at 6 AM. Looking back at those days, I’m pretty surprised at what I could do. Right now I wake up no earlier than 11 AM, and in those days, 7 AM was late by my standards. Oh, I forgot to tell you that my Dad would not be travelling with us, due to issues with his job - he would be joining us later during the weekend - and it would be just the three of us, Mom, Bro and me who would be travelling. I woke Dad up and went off to sleep again, waking up at 7. I found Dad watching the news intently, and I remember images of submerged villages, with people sitting on the roof of a hut in the middle of what looked like a fast-flowing ocean of water, being shown on the news. I think the channel was Tara News. Anyway, at about 7:30, headlines showed up telling that 8645 Up East Coast Express would be departing from Shalimar, 3 hours late at 1:45 PM.

We - the three journeymen, Dad and my maternal grandmother - took a taxi and departed for the station at about 11 AM. We descended from the Vidyasagar Setu and got confused for a while, before taking the Upper Foreshore Road until we got to a signboard showing that we needed to go left to get to Shalimar. Anyhow, we reached there somewhere ‘round 1:15, because I remember we had very little time in our hands while we were stuck in the level crossing just outside the station. Shalimar station isn’t very big. In fact, it has something like 20 tracks, with 18 of them being in a freight yard. There’s one long island platform with Platform numbers 1 and 2. The platform has a concrete roof. There are no shops, no coolies - no nothing. Just a platform and tracks.

We got to the platform after crossing the Platform 1 track on foot - there’s no over-bridge, heck, there isn’t even an entrance to the station - kept our luggage somewhere in the middle of the platform and began waiting. And waiting. 1:45 came and passed. So did 2. And then 2:30. We explored many possibilities - such the train having left from Santragachi, or having been cancelled - until somewhere around 2:50, a voice on the PA system (which we didn’t know even existed until that announcement came through) said that the rake had left the Tikiapara yard and would be arriving on Platform 2 in some time.

And the train did arrive, pulled by the same Jhansi-based WAM-4 electric engine that would take us all the way to Vishakapatnam. While we boarded our coach - and stormed out after keeping the luggage because the AC had not been switched on and it was stuffier than hell inside - the engine decoupled and attached to the other end of the train. We bade our goodbyes, and the train pulled out from the station at 3:45 PM, a full 4 hours behind schedule and departing from the wrong station.

The rest of the day was pretty uneventful. The coach was almost empty until Kharagpur, and even then we had the entire 6-birth coupe to ourselves all that day and night. I was awake all night, watching out of the window - which I always do, even nowadays, in trains - and remember the train stopping numerous times after passing the Chilka Lake station. I couldn’t make out the lake itself because it was so dark, so I daydreamt about fighter planes having a dogfight in the skies above us while I communicated with them over a radio and watched them on a Radar screen in an imaginary laptop. Ahh, those innocent days…

I must have dozed off around 3 or so, and woke up at 6, just as the train arrived at Srikakulam Road. One glance outside and I was captivated by the scenery of the eastern coastal plains. I have traveled along many routes in the Indian Railways, and trust me, you will not see a more scenic mainline route than the Srikakulam Road - Rajahmundry stretch. I quickly took a look at the time and calculated that we were running 8 hours late, and concluded that we would not be reaching Hyderabad until 2AM that night. Resignedly, I took my toothbrush and went off to brush my teeth, while Mom inventoried our food and water supplies. We concluded we had enough biscuits and cake to last us till the evening, and that we had to buy a couple of bottles of water. We also called up Mashimoni and Mesho, giving them our progress report.

We reached Vishakapatnam around 9, where the train stopped for around 40 minutes. Mom went down and bought a couple of bottles of water. The train got a new engine (which I later saw was a rusty old WAG-5) which was slow as hell. Our coupe got another passenger, bringing the total to four.  The train finally started off, in the opposite direction, branching out into another line just before a station called Duvvada. We got our breakfast of Idli and Chutney from a vendor with a bucketful of that stuff. After that, we rolled about on our berths and I read a Famous Five book until we reached Rajahmundry, sometime around 2 in the afternoon. We ordered lunch from the Pantry Car, and waited until it arrived.

It arrived just as the train departed. The train picked up speed very slowly, but then slowed down again as it climbed on top of the bridge over the Godavari. The first two spans of the cantilever bridge are curved, meaning the train curved almost through 75 degrees while over water. It was breathtaking, watching the train curve on a bridge, out of the window.

The scenery changed after crossing the river, and got very boring. I went back to my book, and finished that before climbing up to the upper berth, turning the AC vent towards me and dozing off until I suddenly woke up, found that the train was moving along very slowly, came down and found that it was entering Vijayawada. The train waited for 20 minutes, getting a new engine. Mom bought some stuff from an IRCTC vendor who’d come on the train, and paid him with a 100 rupee note for a bill amounting to 34 rupees. The vendor got off the train, telling us he was going to get change. Anyway, the train departed, again in the reverse direction, five minutes later, and the vendor never returned with the change. Two coupes up front, another family had been duped, this time of a 500 rupee note.

As the train curved to the left to enter the branch line towards Kazipet, I got a good look at the engine, which was a new WAP-4 painted in flaming red. Then things got very interesting. When the train had departed Vijayawada, it was 7 hours late, with a projected arrival time of 1:30 AM. The train suddenly picked up some frightening speed, with the coaches shaking so much that water bottles kept falling off the center table. I looked out of the window and I could see the train skipping one red signal after another. We again had the coupe to ourselves, since the other occupant had left at Vijayawada, and we munched on our cakes and biscuits, not daring to stand up lest we fall down due to the coach’s swinging.

We stopped along the route at Khammam and Warangal, when we decided to call up Mashimoni to give them the latest progress report. It was then that we decided to get off the train at Secunderabad itself, rather than go all the way to Nampally (Hyderabad Station). That way it’d be easier for them to pick us up, and we could get off the train earlier. They told us to call them when the train reached Kazipet, so that they could then leave their house for the station.

We reached Kazipet just half an hour later, sometime around 8. We called them up to inform them of the progress. After the train left Kazipet, it began going even faster. The time it normally takes for the train to get from Kazipet to Secunderabad is four hours. That day, we did it in two and a half.

We reached Secunderabad around 10:45 or so. The train was now running, down from seven hours, five hours late, having made up for two hours along the Vijayawada-Secunderabad stretch. In fact, it had made up for so much time in between Kazipet and Secunderabad that Mashimoni and Mesho didn’t have enough time to get to the station. We had to wait.

Anyway, the train attendant, a young Bengali fellow with a cheery face who’d been very helpful all through the journey, helped us down with our luggage and set us down on the platform. The train left ten minutes after it arrived, for its final stop at Hyderabad. We waited around until 11, until Mashimoni and Mesho showed up and asked us to exit the station and come up to the car park where they were waiting.

We did the meet and greet, and hopped onto Mesho’s car. Mesho was driving, since the driver had gone home as it was so late. We left the station talking nineteen to the dozen, supposedly driving towards their home at Banjara Hills, before we found that since Mesho was paying more attention to the talking, he’d been absent-mindedly driving around a putla three times. But that’s another story altogether.

It’s 3:20 AM here, and I need to get my dose of sleep now. Adios, then :-)

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This blog is about to turn a year old, and all I’ve written about till date is descriptions of events and senti crap. It’s about time I started writing technical stuff too. So what better to write about than how to have a Hack-proof WiFi at home? I just got a Belkin N150 WiFi router at home last Tuesday. It cost just two thousand bucks, and it does half-speed IEEE 802.11n. That means 150 Mbit/s WiFi with a 100ft range. It’s not a dual-band router, so I can use only the 2.4GHz band, but I can use 40MHz wide channels if the recipient device supports it. Using double-wide channels give me twice the bandwidth, but eats up almost 2/3rds of the allocated WiFi band, meaning other WiFi Networks near me and cordless phones too, are going to have a hard time working. Anyway, this was my little triumph over Dad’s two year old fear of WiFi networks getting hacked by terrorists and being used to sent threatening messages to authorities. My IP address would be logged, and I would end up getting arrested. So I just had to make the network Hack-proof. I implemented a three tier security on the network, which I’m going to describe below:

  1. When a new device first tries to connect to my WiFi, it has to somehow grab the WiFi signal and hook on to it. What devices do is sniff data packets from the “air”, scanning them for Extended Service Set Identifier Broadcast packets. These broadcasts packets basically say - hey, here I am, a WiFi network called “Pinocchio’s Home”, and if you want to connect to me you need to support this type of security. My first layer of security was to stop the ESSID broadcasts, thereby effectively hiding my network. So in order to gain access to my network, not only do people have to know that there’s an active WiFi network here, they also have to know the name of my network. Sorry folks, I’m not giving that away.
  2. Now let’s say I’m logging in to the network. I manually supply the Network name to my machine, and it tries to connect to my network. Now unless it’s my Dell Vostro 1088n that’s connecting, it won’t go through. Lemme explain. Each and every WiFi adapter or Network card ever made has an unique hardware ID called the MAC ID - Media Access Control Identifier. My next layer of security concerns this. My network only accepts clients with specific MAC IDs (as of now, only one - my laptop). Any other device just will not be able to gain access to the network, unless they spoof the MAC ID and use mine. To do that, someone needs to steal my laptop, run a couple of commands to retrieve my ID, and then spoof their ID using mine. And the moment I notice my Laptop missing, you know my WiFi’s gonna be shut down.
  3. And if you’ve somehow gotten past these two, you’ll hit the final titanium-reinforced lead-lined concrete wall - WPA2-PSK encryption with AES. Even when the older WPA-PSK with TKIP has not been broken yet (I believe a weak password was broken with a dictionary-based brute force attack), my network uses the newer WPA2-PSK with AES encryption. Each and every data packet is encrypted using a different key, and to top it all, the master key - my password - is plenty long, plenty random and plenty strong to take a couple of years worth of supercomputing to break down with brute-force attacks. Now there you go.
What else do you need to have a break-proof security?
  • Use scary names for your WiFi. While the bad guys will break into your network no matter what ever your network is called, curious good guys will get pretty scared when they see a network called “Virus” or “Hacked By XxX”.
  • Use a strong password for your router configuration WebUI. Trust me, you don’t want someone breaking into your router and locking you out of your own network.
  • Change the default Site-specific domain name in the router configuration. If you keep the default name, the bad guys could guess which router you’re using, and then hack into it using known exploits for that specific router.
There you go. My first technical post. Adios amigos :-) [caption id=”” align=”aligncenter” width=”324” caption=”The Belkin N150 WiFi Router”]The WiFi Router[/caption]

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It sure was a shock served with a bullet, but I needed it. Yep. I was pretty clueless about it until Shayon commented on one of my Facebook statuses that I’d been turning pretty outspoken and using language that can be termed as abusive. I guess I owe you guys an explanation, so here goes:

  • I’ve been here in the same school, same forsaken house (where two people and a dog have as of now died and all other inhabitants are regularly in a very bad state of health) and same city for 7 long years. I’ve been interacting with the same people, and frankly, I’m bored.
  • Now let’s come to the people. While there are a few really good people in my life (apart from my family of course), I’ll stop being diplomatic and say that I’m frankly disgusted with the self-oriented “kajer shomoy kaaji, kaaj furole paaji” type of folk that I generally come across. This is in stark contrast to my upbringing which has always been “others first”.
  • Academically speaking, I have lately been very bad at Math, and no matter how hard I try I’m really unable to improve on it. It’s not really my abilities at Math but rather my confidence levels that have hit rock bottom. This has led to frustration.
  • And again, I’m chronically sleep-deprived, which translates to me being in a bad mood all the time.
  • Lastly but not the least, there’s a general lack of variety and excitement in my life. It’s very rarely that we go out on vacations or trips anywhere, for the simple reason that Dad stays almost 3000 kilometers from where I do. Whatever little outings with friends I have, they are far and few in between.
Anyway, most of these issues should be solved in a couple of months as I move to Mumbai, and hopefully I shall again go back to the jolly lively state that I used to be in, say two to three years ago. But till then, accept my apologies and bear with me for a little more time. Adios.

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This is my blog. For all practical purposes, I pay for its upkeep. By the Constitution of India, I also have a right to free speech. What I write here is what I think, uncut and uncensored. I also realize that since I’m under the age of 18, my parents have a responsibility towards what I write here, and let me assure you that they have complete knowledge of what I write here. No one has forced you - the reader - to read what I write here. If you find that it hurts your sentiments, accept my apologies and feel free to stop reading my site and move on. But something that you do not have any right to do is dictate what I write on my own site which I pay for with my own money. Nope.

So for the last time, any comments on my site that go: “remove such and such or I’m going to take this page straight to the Principal of our school” will be completely disregarded and moderated. Repeat violators will be blocked from posting further comments on this site. If you have something against what I write here, go write about it on your own site, and remember, I might choose not to read it, because no one has, and no one can, force me to read it. And yes, go ahead and report it to the Principal. I have complete confidence that I have not written anything that jeopardizes the public image of the school. In fact, I sincerely love my school and I’m sure that whatever I have done in my life so far in the name of my school has only bettered its name. I would not ever dream of letting it down. As long as my actions do not jeopardize the position of the school negatively, I do not believe the school has to care.

And lastly, anything I write here is my personal opinion, and any fights I choose to pick on this site is a personal matter. If anybody chooses to complain about this to a higher authority, I disclaim any and all responsibility towards the matter. You are exercising your free will in reading this blog or any post within. If you don’t like it, move on, but don’t complain. I’m not buying readership from you. I don’t write this blog to please people, I write it because I like to write things, and I believe writing a blog - which is like writing a diary helps me keep in touch.

Anything I write here may be publicly accessible. This does not mean you should treat it as an authoritative source of always correct and very important information. If there had been no such things as blogs, I’m pretty sure I would have written all of this down in a diary somewhere. Would you have read my diary, inside the sanctity of my home, and then complained about what I have written in it? This is akin to thought control - you do not have any right to dictate what I think.

And if I’m writing anything negative about a public performance or project, say maybe a movie or a band, and then the producers of the movie or the band comes up and asks me to take down my post, it’s like going and asking The Telegraph to un-publish a bad movie review published in t2. I’m an individual, and t2 is an entire newspaper. But for all practical purposes, we’re both publishing what we think about your performance/project. And you have to accept it. After all, your performance/project was for our viewing/reading/knowledge-gaining pleasure, and for all the people that did like it/find it useful, you will have gotten many positive comments. If you do not like our negativity, ignore us, but again, you have no right to moderate or dictate us, or use big terms like “back-stabbing” and what not, which I’m sure you don’t even understand the meaning of, but use them anyway just to sound “cool” and “emotionally grown-up and mature”.

Oh, and another thing. This is a blog. This is not a Social Networking website. So again, any comments that go “you have written such and such on a social website” - please, dear author, go and check your facts. There are no such things as social websites, and a blog is not a social network.

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While most of the students in the school were at some place called Monobitan today for their picnic (Don’t ask me where it is; I’ll be the last one to know), we, that is Ankush, Swaroop and I decided to crash at Ankush’s place for some fun and games. I’ll start my narrative at 1:15 PM, when Swaroop and I alighted from the bus at Ranikuthi, and began walking towards G.D. Birla. I was carrying Swaroop’s prized Fender Squier - since if you’ve seen him you’ll know he’s so tall the guitar’s fretboard would have been torn off by the sunshades of the shops - and then this GDB school bus came, it had all the road to maneuver through, but it hit the guitar on my back twice before speeding off. We spent the next ten minutes examining it minutely for damage, and then decided it was unscathed. Anyway, we reached Ankush’s house, which we discovered was just opposite GDB. He lamented about the fact that even while living just beside a girls’ school, he had no girlfriends, before heading up to his flat. Even before we had a chance to set up base camp in his bedroom, his Mom treated us to cold drinks and snacks, and then golden fried prawns, before ushering us off to a lunch of fried rice, cauliflower curry, chicken, salad (which had broccoli - which I tried for the first time - which I liked) and fried bhetki fish. It was delectable. Now began all the fun, in earnest. We began by playing Flight Simulator on my laptop. Ankush was crazy about it, Swaroop was most disinterested, and I was trying to show Ankush how to properly fly the plane. Ankush had no intentions of giving up flying the plane, and Swaroop, now unable to bear it anymore began a physical attack on the joystick, managing to lock up my laptop twice. So eventually we got around to the music. Mayhem ensued:

  • We began with the Bengali songs. Swaroop tried to take a shot at singing while reading 8 point Times New Roman from about six feet away. So instead of Benche Thaakar Gaan, it became Henche Thaakar Gaan.
  • We had this idea of modernizing some Rabindrasangeet. Swaroop began - “Akash bhora shurjo taara - Yo, all you &$^&$#(*$?*@) on the stage-” before we were all on the floor, laughing our lungs out.
  • Swar’s “Bhoop chiki bhoop chik” in front of every song gave even the saddest of ballads a hilarious twist, and had us gasping for air, on the floor.
  • Sometime around 3 in the afternoon, Ankush decided to unveil his Synthesizer - which was downright seductive - and played beats on which we were supposed to sing. We tried to sing Woh Lamhe with Reggage beats. It was nice… well more like senselessly hilarious, but still nice.
Ultimately though, we found out that Ankush is a one man band. He can play the Guitar, the Keyboard and sing, all in the highest of standards. Un-believable. In fact, his dexterity with the Keyboard is just incomparable. Anybody remember Mr. Menezes? Well, think of Ankush as one step above him. I took a bagload of recording equipment, but ultimately did nothing. Except for Swaroop, who was overexcited about everything, both of us were just too plain lazy to do anything. Swaroop was furious at not getting some more songs on our Reverbnation page - to spite the “Other” band that we have in school. We quickly made up some variations of their name, getting everything from Flickering Flame to Frozen Fire (we’re also not publishing their real name, to protect their identity :P). I played around with Ankush’s Stratocaster for a while, which I discovered that with distortions, even Swaroop’s pet dog can create masterpiece solos. I didn’t even think about touching the Accoustics - they were way above my level. Swaroop decided to call it quits at 5:30, and went back home. Ankush wanted me to stick around some more, so I stayed on for an hour, him playing Flight Simulator, talking about music and watching episodes of Seconds From Disaster. Apparently, he wants to be a pilot, but thinks there’s too much risk in the job to actually go for it seriously. Dude, if you have a passion for flying, just go for it. We finished up a packet of potato chips, and then discussed our band in practical terms. A good band doesn’t exactly make their name singing covers, and we had to make some of our own compositions. We also need a couple of more members. Anyway, I cut out at 7, and was back home by 8. The traffic was horrendous. In between us three, we’ve downed about 3.2 litres of soft drinks today.

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Remember the opening scene in the movie Harry Potter and the Prisoner Of Azkaban? Harry, sitting under a blanket practicing charms? Anybody coming into my room at night would witness that scene live. Well, not exactly practicing charms, but they’d see a brightly lit blanket with a silhouette of me sitting inside. The light source would be my laptop.

It’s pretty amazing what you can achieve with a laptop, two pillows and a blanket on a cold, winter night. Facebooking from the bed, half asleep, under the comforts of a mink blanket is nothing short of seductive. And then there’s the night movie show which starts at 1 AM, and goes on till 3, after which I just slam the lid shut and then slam the eyelids shut. I also sincerely believe when you’re lying down, your heart and soul opens up a lot more, making for much better blog posts ;-)

Well, enough ramblings. Right now, I have, let’s see, Two And A Half Men, The Simpsons and How I Met Your Mother all lined up on Star World. Adios, amigos. Catch ya later!

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Yes, I’m sleep deprived. And yes, it’s a hormone thing, so fellow teenagers who think you’re going insane, lemme explain.

Apparently, during human adolescence, the circadian rhythm (i.e, your body clock) undergoes marked changes. Everything moves forward. It does eventually go back to the original state once you reach adulthood, but for the time being, it’s going to make your life difficult.

The biggest change that this rhythm change is going to bring is in your sleeping pattern. At the peak of my change, I used to go to sleep at 4 in the morning and wake up at 1 in the afternoon - that’s 9 hours of sleep - in the holidays. I would simply be unable to sleep before 3 during the school days, and thus, with having to wake up at 7, used to get only 4 hours of sleep during weekday nights. All this has left me in a state of chronic sleep deprivation - and the effects are frightening.

Recovery from this can take years. This chronic deprivation will lead to, amongst other things, memory and attention lapses, a general lack of stamina, gastrointestinal disorders, and especially “looking like hell” - so much so that a permanent impression of being diseased falls onto your face. While this is reversible, it takes time. A hell lot of time.

This can also have horrendous psychological impacts. It generally starts with a lowering of self-confidence levels, followed by a string of failures in certain activities, which serve to even lower your confidence to the level where you start questioning your own abilities. This leads to depression. However, it’s comparatively easier to come out of the psychological hellhole - all you need to do is take life a bit lightly, not put undue pressure on yourself and keep doing smallish activities which serve to boost your confidence.

Coming out of the curve myself, I’ll give you this much of advice - If you can’t get enough sleep, you’ll look like hell, you’ll feel like hell and you’ll probably repulse a couple of chicks too. The important thing is to not put pressure on yourself, believe that everything will work itself out, and indulge in light-hearted activities. Lots of coffee is to be drank, lots of music is to be listened to while working, and yeah, keep off the cosmetics until you’re sure you’re coming out of the curve. Exercise, eat, drink and be merry, and finally - do something by which you feel fulfilled. By that, I mean something close to your heart, something you’re passionate about, that is going to keep you happy. I eat, I travel and I like to fiddle with computers. The combo might be different for you, but you will have a combo, and that will be your key to triumphing over the hormones.

Peace!

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You know me, I used to get caught up in everyday life
Tried to make it through my day so I could sleep at night
Tried to figure out my way through the maze
Of rights and wrongs, but like you used to say
Nothing feels like it’s really worth it
Forget perfect, I’m trying not to be worthless
Since I last saw you I been looking for a purpose
Well I met this kid who thought like I did
He had a weird way of looking at it
This is what he said

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you’ll see nobody cares
Cos you don’t wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you’ll see nobody cares
Cos you don’t wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

I don’t remember where I met him or remember his name
But he walked funny like he was just too big for his frame
Just over five foot but he weighed a buck fifty
And what he said just seemed so right it stuck with me
Listen its like poker you can play your best
But you got to know when to fold your cards and take a rest
And know when to hold your cards and hold your breath
And hope that nobody else is stacking the deck because
I don’t need to tell you that life isn’t fair, it doesn’t care
It arbitrarily cuts off your air, and like you I want someone to say its OKAY
But in the truest parts of our hearts everybody’s afraid
But just underappreciated and overwhelmed
Fighting so hard to hide our fear that were scaring ourselves
You understand when I’m saying that you always did
But its different in the words of a cowardly kid

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you’ll see nobody cares
Cos you don’t wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you’ll see nobody cares
Cos you don’t wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

I’m no hero, you remember how I was, you know
All I ever did was worry, feeling out of control
To the point where everything was going end over end
I’m spinning around in circles again
This is where you come in
All of this to explain to you why
I had to separate myself away from yesterday’s life
Please remember this isn’t how I hoped it would be
But I had to protect you from me
Thats why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there
I know you felt unprepared
But every single time I was around I just bring you down
And I could tell that it was time to be scared
Thats why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there
And I know the way I left wasn’t fair
I didn’t want to be around just to bring you down
I’m not a hero but don’t think I didn’t care

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One of my good friends is here for Christmas and New Year. So he came along for a visit yesterday morning, and we, perched on the window-ledge, discussed admission into Junior College in Mumbai, where I’m moving next year. I may not be taking science after all - I might be studying Psychology, and why I’m going to do that was the subject of yesterday’s discussion, and this blog post.

You see, we’re both Entrepreneurs at heart. We have the idea, and we have a certain ability to make stuff happen. We both hate the idea of working for someone. We want to do exactly what we like, and nothing else. Give us a venture capitalist and 10 days, we’ll establish a company right now with a six figure starting salary in the first month. I’m not overconfident - this is the scene right now.

So how is this? Innovation. No one thinks of opening a travel agency now. Or a school. Or an insurance franchise. They won’t work nowadays. Everyone works on the Internet. When the Internet was first created, the idea was to connect military computers and universities together so that they could share information. Who though that it would turn into the world’s largest Shopping Mall in less that 20 years?

And you know the best thing about it? Innovate, and you’ll end up being more famous than the President of the United States. You’ll also earn thrice his salary, and will also be able to afford to run your own fleet of Air Force Ones, with thrice the amenities. It’s like the oil buisness, except that unlike oil, the Internet isn’t about to run out.

So why have I been ranting on about Innovation all the time? You need to Innovate. Start a blogging service, it’ll fail before it even registers its domain name. Start a blogging company with geotagging and location based services integrated, you’ll be a billionaire in two years.  There are two things you can do - think of a brand new killer idea and patent it, or you take an existing site with a bad idea, innovate on it and turn it into a good idea - and patent it. You just cannot copy someone else’s service - it just won’t work. Which is why no one has even attempted to make a copy of Facebook. Diaspora? That’s a new idea altogether. Go Google.

So where does Psychology fit into this? If you’re a computer guy, the last thing you should be studying is Computer Science, unless you want to do electronics. Like design processors. Or write low-level System Software (in which case you’ll need a solid understanding of how your hardware works). No one can teach you programming, or computers for that matter - it’s a skill that you’re born with. Your teacher can teach you the syntax and semantics of C++, but he can’t teach you programming. Programmers are born, not made.

So if you have a future on the Internet, you don’t study Computer Science - you can already do that. Sit with a API reference of your preferred library, and you’ll figure out what to write in minutes. If you can’t on your own, then forget it - you weren’t meant to be a computer guy in the first place. But you do study Psychology. In fact, you study advanced Psychology and Sociology, because you need to design your products according to the way the public behaves. Behavioral Analysis is the secret to a successful Internet venture. A bit of Economics also helps.

Enough ranting. Let the hacking begin.

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It’s been seven years. Seven very long years. I came back from Guwahati back in 2004, as my family had to look after my now deceased grandmother’s ailing health. I joined a certain Shree Bharati, and have been there ever since. In those seven years, I’ve gone through seven classes, three Collages, four Sports Days, two Cultural Carnivals, numerous small programmes and a couple of quizzes, some of which I’d won. I’ve made many friends and a couple of enemies. I’ve gone through many ups and downs, almost gotten expelled back in Class 6, and well, had an adventurous time. But now, it’s time to move on.

To tell you the truth, I’m bored. I’m sick and tired of the same school, the same people, the same classes, the same status quo, the same fights with the same so called friends, the same patch-ups after that - in short, the same life I’ve been leading for the last 7 years. It’s time to change it.

I also have a life of my own that I’d like to lead. I’m not going to be dictated what I can do by my school. My school is not my life. I have certain interests and abilities that I’d like to exploit, and do something recognizable. I’ve got to work hard on myself. This is something that I’m just not being able to do, with my current mental state. I was recently in Delhi to attend a seminar, and that was when I realized I have a life outside Kolkata and Shree Bharati. There’s a lot to do. Stuff for public good, stuff for the advancement of technology and even stuff for my personal gain. I cannot afford to be a recluse any more. It’s high time I started advancing myself.

So, at the end of this academic year, I’m moving out. I’m finished with this. It’s time to start life afresh. New friends, new people, new acquaintances. New work, new aims. And hopefully, I’ll be famous some day - I’ve just got to start working now.

Adios.

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It’s always like someone’s turned off the electricity in a brightly lit palace at midnight. Life was going so well. And then this. Suddenly.

Well, lemme just post up the prelude to this. I’d been to Delhi this weekend, attending OSSCamp 10.11, speaking on remote controlling your computer using SMS. That went well, but what went weller was the trip in itself - everything from the flight to Madcap’s place, to the people, JIIT Noida, Booze Night, the Metro and all was so perfect. I had just about the best days of 2010 yet.

Well, almost perfect anyway. There was one missing ingredient - a person.

So anyway, I kinda wished that she could have been there, to join in the fun. Letting her loose at CP and Karol Bagh would have been, well, she’d have gone bankrupt. And have had a good time. So I kinda cancelled the small talk that I had scheduled on Sunday to go shopping for some shades that she’d asked for.

Anyway, once I was back, I gave it a passing thought - maybe I should do something to give her a good time? Well, Madcap had given me a AVI of The Social Network - you know, this film about Facebook that’s just been out for a few weeks. I saw it - and was amazed at it. This film was - is - downright stupendously excellent in its portrayal of Zuckerberg and Co. Add to that the subject matter - she loves stuff like this - I thought maybe I could show her The Social Network.

Rejected.

And I had a pretty bad day at school too. Was kinda sick as well.

Anyway, enough bore. I’m off to some music. Ciao.

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I’d chosen an auspicious day to fly, one could say. The 2nd Anniversary of 26/11, the day India suffered its worst terrorist attack yet. So, I was (or rather am; I’m writing this post en-route, on the flight) flying to Delhi to attend OSSCamp Delhi 10.11. And it’s been a very bad day so far.

I originally planned to attend school and return back home at 12 noon, doing a half-day. I’d spoken to the Principal about it. Cut to today, I went down to the Principal in the morning to present the letter of leav that she’d told me to show. At once her temper flared up, she said she would just not have students doing half-day, she’d decided, and that I was to go back home that instant. So I did.

I left home at 1, planing adequately so that I should reach the airport at 3, well in time to catch the flight at 5:35 PM – SpiceJet flight 219. Halfway through to the airport, I was left thoughtless when an SMS sent to me said the flight had been rescheduled to depart at 8:10 PM.

I reached Dum Dum International at 2:30, got my baggage checken in and myself security-checked in the next 15 minutes. And thus began my six-hour wait.

I killed off some of the time Facebooking, Tweeting, calling up friends, strolling and so on and so forth. Boarding was supposed to start at 7:30, and I figured I could last out till then. I met Devesh Jain, from Class 8 of our school, also going to Delhi but taking an IndiGo flight. We chatted for a bit, before his flight left. And then I found that my flight had been rescheduled yet again, and now was to leave at 8:50.

I lost my temper, stormed off to Ground Support for an explanation, and got handed a food packet, with regrets for the delay. Nice touch, but the fact stood – the flight was almost 4 hours late.

Ground Support’s story was that the aircraft had left late from the previes port of call due to inclement weather. The previous port of call was Delhi. I called up the guys over at Delhi to check up, and sure enough, Delhi was enjoying Zulu weather. So SpiceJet had also fed me bullshit. No appreciated.

Anyway, the flight finally took off at 9. So far, the crew conduct has been somewhat unsatifactory, but I’m willing to forgive them – it’s late and very tiring. I’m now somewhere over Asansol or Dhanbad, I suppose.

So I’ll sign off here. I’ll upload the post when I reach Delhi. Till then, Ciao!